bear-ing it since 72
bear-ing it since 72
Thursday 22 March 2012
Wednesday 21 March 2012
Bear life....
I have not written in awhile because i have been busy. I have had several job and telephone interviews. So i have been prepping for them and having my fur all ruffled by the stress of it. Having to speak to someone about your skills and yourself is not a nice thing to do. But anyway needless to say i have not got any of them because i have been beaten by experience and empolyers been very fussy indeed. So off i go back into the job market shifting through the crap to find that job...
Yet another rejection. Interview went so well and i just dont understand it. So bears feeling alittle sad now. I want to give up and just stop trying but i know thats not me. The cave is starting to feel like a prison. Been trying to keep active but its all to dishearting.
I keep asking myself the same question - what do i have to do!!! I feel as if im not getting a break and that maybe i maybe dragged back into the life that i left and dont want to go back too. That life was to much, it was no good for me, it was a life full of pain. This bear is battered and brusied and has many scars from it.
grrrrrrrr
Yet another rejection. Interview went so well and i just dont understand it. So bears feeling alittle sad now. I want to give up and just stop trying but i know thats not me. The cave is starting to feel like a prison. Been trying to keep active but its all to dishearting.
I keep asking myself the same question - what do i have to do!!! I feel as if im not getting a break and that maybe i maybe dragged back into the life that i left and dont want to go back too. That life was to much, it was no good for me, it was a life full of pain. This bear is battered and brusied and has many scars from it.
grrrrrrrr
Tuesday 13 March 2012
Sunday 11 March 2012
Saturday 10 March 2012
Job hunting....
Well im still unempolyed and kind of starting to wish that i hadnt left working for HSBC but then i think of all the amounts of times i lost bonuses and never been credited for the hardwork i did. And watching the favourite people getting all the benefits and promotions, money and awards for not doing anything other than sucking up. Not to mention all the travelling i did. So i think to myself, it just wasnt worth fighting off the bullies. i fought them at their own game because i knew they had no idea on how to do their own jobs let alone mine. So when i was troubled i fought back with their own system and i won most of the time because i knew they were wrong all the time. They were hell bent on grinding me down that they lacked the one thing and that was knowing how to do it.
Yes i was outspoken but that was because i got to apoint where my ideas were not been taken seriously and then finding that one of the favourite people were actually working on my ideas. In the end i thought, your not worth the trouble, i have made my point and to be fair you have not won and never will. But the time i spent getting there and the lack of money from them i just thought, yeah i am working for a bank and yeah it looks good on my CV and some of the people are ok but that was not worth coming to work for. But anyway lets just say karma came back and took its price for thier actions and i now think if i had not left when i did then karma would not of asked for its payment. It waited for me to leave but in away im glad i did leave. I was tired mentally and i was near burnt out and i paid the price.
Karma took its pay from me too because after i left HSBC in 2010 i made some bad choices and needless to say i paid heavy for them. But i realsied now that if i was not so burnt out and stressed out i would of never let myself get into those positions and well 2011 took me out but there was a lesson there for me to learn and i have learnt it.
Anyway i have gone off in the wrong direction. So as for job hunting i have had at least 8-10 telephone interviews and two interviews with assessments. So in four months i have done very well and im only getting beaten by people who have more experience than me. According to my job centre advisor this is true as there seems to be alot of high calbire managers, doctors etc etc out of work too. So again its a matter of time and getting my CV out there.
Job hunting is a full time job but its a job that can take you a few hours or just two hours depending on when you start. If you register with all the sites and set up email alerts then when you chcek your emails you can scan through the alerts and apply quickly as all your details are on that site. The ones that take the time are the ones that you have to go to the actually company website for but even then once you have set up a profile it becomes easy next time around.
So job hunting can be long but it dont have to be. You can spend hours going through websites but i have noticed that you will eventually be able to tell if there are jobs for you on that day by the way the email alerts come in and by the way of the content of the alerts. I think you become tuned into the job market after awhile and just know when its a good day to look or a abd day to look. If its a good day i will run with the flow and apply for everything that i can do, this may take me all day but it will always take several hours. However if its a bad day then i just spend maybe half an hour too an hour. No point beating yourself up and stressing yourself out if there is nothing out there to be had.
Another thing i found out about been unempolyed is that you can not do any sort of further study. I knew you could not go to college or Uni but you can not even do a home study course in your own time to further your skills. So if you wanted to learn say Microsoft powerpoint then you can not do it. Nor can you study for a change in direction for example if you wanted to become a personal trainer. Its just not allowed. I can understand why but i still find it stupid. Because if you can not progress in your field or you wish to change/try a new direction you have got no chance. Well you have but its quite complex and 99% of the time you will not be successful. Once your umeployed then you are just ment to look for jobs thats it nothing more and nothing less.
So the job market is dry,
Empolyers are been very fussy as they are trying to get the best bang for their buck,
And there is alot of experienced looking for work,
And you can not retrain...
So all that you can do is just hang on in because somewhere out there is a job with your name on it....its just finding it or waiting for it to come along.
Yes i was outspoken but that was because i got to apoint where my ideas were not been taken seriously and then finding that one of the favourite people were actually working on my ideas. In the end i thought, your not worth the trouble, i have made my point and to be fair you have not won and never will. But the time i spent getting there and the lack of money from them i just thought, yeah i am working for a bank and yeah it looks good on my CV and some of the people are ok but that was not worth coming to work for. But anyway lets just say karma came back and took its price for thier actions and i now think if i had not left when i did then karma would not of asked for its payment. It waited for me to leave but in away im glad i did leave. I was tired mentally and i was near burnt out and i paid the price.
Karma took its pay from me too because after i left HSBC in 2010 i made some bad choices and needless to say i paid heavy for them. But i realsied now that if i was not so burnt out and stressed out i would of never let myself get into those positions and well 2011 took me out but there was a lesson there for me to learn and i have learnt it.
Anyway i have gone off in the wrong direction. So as for job hunting i have had at least 8-10 telephone interviews and two interviews with assessments. So in four months i have done very well and im only getting beaten by people who have more experience than me. According to my job centre advisor this is true as there seems to be alot of high calbire managers, doctors etc etc out of work too. So again its a matter of time and getting my CV out there.
Job hunting is a full time job but its a job that can take you a few hours or just two hours depending on when you start. If you register with all the sites and set up email alerts then when you chcek your emails you can scan through the alerts and apply quickly as all your details are on that site. The ones that take the time are the ones that you have to go to the actually company website for but even then once you have set up a profile it becomes easy next time around.
So job hunting can be long but it dont have to be. You can spend hours going through websites but i have noticed that you will eventually be able to tell if there are jobs for you on that day by the way the email alerts come in and by the way of the content of the alerts. I think you become tuned into the job market after awhile and just know when its a good day to look or a abd day to look. If its a good day i will run with the flow and apply for everything that i can do, this may take me all day but it will always take several hours. However if its a bad day then i just spend maybe half an hour too an hour. No point beating yourself up and stressing yourself out if there is nothing out there to be had.
Another thing i found out about been unempolyed is that you can not do any sort of further study. I knew you could not go to college or Uni but you can not even do a home study course in your own time to further your skills. So if you wanted to learn say Microsoft powerpoint then you can not do it. Nor can you study for a change in direction for example if you wanted to become a personal trainer. Its just not allowed. I can understand why but i still find it stupid. Because if you can not progress in your field or you wish to change/try a new direction you have got no chance. Well you have but its quite complex and 99% of the time you will not be successful. Once your umeployed then you are just ment to look for jobs thats it nothing more and nothing less.
So the job market is dry,
Empolyers are been very fussy as they are trying to get the best bang for their buck,
And there is alot of experienced looking for work,
And you can not retrain...
So all that you can do is just hang on in because somewhere out there is a job with your name on it....its just finding it or waiting for it to come along.
Games...games...games....
What can bear say but these games were good.....kept me from slowly going mad in a otherwise boring day. I have always been a pc gamer and usually only played combat space sims and maybe the odd Call of Duty. But since the Xbox got setup, which was in its box for several months after it came, (free with my new phone). I started to buy games for it, other than X3, the rest are Xbox and i have to say....oh my, oh my, oh my all these games have had my fur on edge with their gameplay, plots, cut scenes and unexpected bits. Needless to say i died alot and gruffed in a deep voice 'i am Batman' before each fight. But i enjoyed things like going on a rampage with a flame thrower or letting the team go in first and using my sniper rifle to get some real good head shots right upto working out the riddle puzzles.
Now im back to X3, so its back to trading, fighting, building and exploring in space. At least i can fill my day up alittle more after the job hunting, physio and training is done.
I do have to say that like my 8 year old nephew i did have some scary dreams at one point playing Batman but unlike my nephew i didnt scream and cry but i still had a scary dream once or twice. I am a scaredy bear sometimes!
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